I'm Just Not There

I'm just not there where you think I should be
I am done with the lights and the city

It was a time in my life where things were fast and high paced
We had each others back and felt like we ran each others race

The ego had a good run
We got away with a lot and still woke up lucky to be seeing the afternoon sun

The shitty feeling after you gave up your night to a beverage that tasted like shit
Wake up and say to yourself "that's the last time. you are done with all of it. "

The jokes of the night that went a little to far
The humiliation of getting escorted out of a bar

The fun times that masked the hurt we felt during the week
Kept pounding the drinks unconscious of what we were trying to seek

Now they have jobs so its an excuse to party even harder on the weekends
Loosing their soul, destruction never ends



The endless nights of being rejected by women we thought we could never have
The nights of partying with ladies that we certainly could always have

Now I run my own race
At sometimes may be a way too gradual of a pace


Regardless of what they thought
It was the positive energy I brought


Regardless if they understood my silent moment
At the end of the day I owned it.


I'm just not there
Where you think I should be

But I sure am where I feel is most necessary
For me to be the person I was destined to be for me.

Baker