Tried To Be In The Present Moment

Woke up said my intention is to be more present today
So I had to ignore what my ego wanted to say

Things slowed down considerbly
It was an ongoing battle between my ego and spirituality

I wanted to be here totattly aware
But the ego says, "It's just not fair"

Ego is always in conflict with the present moment
Always trying to "own it"

I simply intended just to simply be
So I can experience that feeling of being free

It works for a few seconds then a thought arrives
Sooner or later the thought multiplies

Next thing you know I am in an ego type mode
Blaming and complaing of things that I don't really hold

These come in the form of the past, things and people of the old
How can this ego be so cold?

I tried to be in the present moment and it didnt work
This ego does cause a lot of suffering and hurt

A place that seems so easy and natural seems so hard to get into
It always seems easier to be in the ego then live in wha is true

Tried to be in the present moment
But the ego wouldn't fall for it